Well I am back home from the world of chaos. My mom can really make you miserable when you think You couldn't get any more miserable. But that is another blog to write later. While there I caught a cold/flu/bug and I am still sick. It really irritating. My head feels like its ten times bigger than it should be, my nose cant make up its mid if it wants to be stuffy or drip everywhere and my throat hurts. I been going to bed really early...about this time 943pm. Tonight thu I fell asleep while putting Emma to sleep at 7pm. I woke up about nine going whoa! I had to take meds and to my nightly ritual of bathroom, teeth brushed, getting Emma a bottle prepared for the night ect.

I am getting a bit hungry but I will be stubborn and ignore it cause after I am done here I will check boards on co&k and get myself in bed. I have no choice but to wheel myself to Lillian's bus stop in the morning since Matthew got stuck with extended p.t in the mornings. You want to know how difficult it is to wheel up hill with a five year trying to struggle pushing you and a one year old that is on your lap. grrr! I tried contacting the school and Matthew's first Sargent for help but no one has gotten back to me or tried to see about helping us. I am also trying to get Emma enrolled on base for daycare since I found out that the army offers a certain amount of free day care hours I thought it would be best for her to be around kids her age to play instead of sitting here bored since mommy can not play the way I could. Also since my upcoming surgery will be soon it would be good for me to recover quickly since I don't know if they are going to let Matt have the time off.

Well thats enough of me babbling off to bed I go. later gaters

Today I got some of the laundry done and making my list for mine and the girls stay at my mom's while Matthew is in the field. I hope I don't forget anything. I will bring my laptop with me in hopes my brother's will let me share the net. But if you guys don't see me much throughout the week you know why. I should return home on Friday evening. That is the day I go for my physical therapy. I been walking more on my foot today...not the best but trying. I will hobble from the kitchen to the laundry room. The hallway to the bathroom. So I am excited!

After my show is over I am jumping in the shower before I fall asleep tonight. We did a good cleaning in the livin room. We watched Speed Racer movie and ate dinner together in the living room. It was nice. We got the girls in bed at 8 so I am hoping for some sleep in-age. lol

Well back to the world of the sci fi channel!

Today went by very quickly. The day didn't start as I hope for since I thought Matthew wasn't going to sick call till after 7am. With that I woke up did my normal routine in getting Lillian ready for school and I went to go wake up him in the room(i slept with the girls, trying to get Emma to stay in her bed) and moved the bundle of blanket thinking it was him and notice he wasn't there. Omg! So that meant he went to sick call much earlier and I was freaking out thinking she wasn't going to make it to her bus. So I had no choice but to get dress and Emma. I wheeled myself down the drive way which is like a slope and down the street which is nothing but a up hill...all while keeping Emma from moving so much cause I did not want her to fall off me and hurt herself. I had Lillian help me as much as she could by pushing me up that hill and we made it. She got on her bus and we went home. Usually I get Emma down for a morning nap at 9am but since she woke up at 6am and that much exercise in such little time I decided for early napage.

We slept good for 2 hours. I heard Matthew come in at 930 but I didn't bother talking to him till I knew I was rested. Because I was angry that he didn't leave a not or bother to call me.

The rest of the day he stayed in bed which is okay cause I knew he was sick. I cleaned up the living room and the kitchen. I made mini pizzas for dinner out of biscuits, prego and the left over taco meat from last night...yes I put cheese on them..yum!

When it came time for bed Lillian became very onry and when she began to talk back to me not once but 3 times I sent her to bed early. My new task was to wear out Emma by myself. I opened the back door and let her loose lol. I let her play for 30 mins and washed her up and put her in bed. I thought she was almost asleep when POOF she was sitting up wanting to play.

That is when I called in reinforcements...her daddy. I took her to him in the living room and she was out in 20 mins leaving mommy feeling relaxed.

With my mommy free time I took some pics of me and Matthew for his parents who are out of town with family and they wanted updated pics of us. I also made a fantastic phone charm that matched great with my purple phone. I tried taking pics of it but of course just like taking pics of my jewelry I made did not come out the way I wanted.

But anyway tomorrow I have to get things ready for our stay at my parents while Matthew is in the field. Enjoy the dorky pics below. Later gaters

Its 8:25pm and so far it is quiet in the Haggard Household. Last night was difficult to get any rest and I had that medication that the doc gave me to help me too. One of the meds made me feel really nauseated. Not to mention Emma came in the room at 3:30am and wanted to play. I can not wait till she sleeps through out the night and stay in bed. Once I got her to lay down on the mattress that is next to our bed before I knew it she was up again and I just went ahead and got myself up. I got Lillian up, dressed, fed and ready for school.

I notice Matthew hadn't got up for P.T and figured he probably got a call saying he didn't need too. Once I got Lillian ready I woke him up and notice he was not feeling good at all. After he took Lillian to her bus stop I got his phone and called his squad leader to let him know that he wasn't feeling well. He told me he should of called earlier to let him know and that he has to go to the e.r to get notification of his failure to appear at formation this morning. So I got Matthew up again and told him he had to go.

Once he left I wanted to see if Emma would take a nap so I could get some sleep. But she fought with me till in the end I prevailed and we slept a good 2 hours. It was a good thing I logged into myspace cause I saw my sister-in-law's status about it being early out. I didn't know it was early out so I quickly hunted for the school calendar and saw it was. It was already noon and I called the school to see what time they released which was an hour later and Matthew was still at the hospital. I hit the panic button cause I had to figure out how to get me and Emma to the bus stop but the last time I tried to wheel myself there with Emma on me I almost skidded and lost traction which I was afraid that Emma would flip out of my arms.

So I called my mom which was a good thing that she was leaving the college from picking up my brother and she picked Lillian up from school. So heart failure was prevented. lol

Matthew finally came home and he was cranky as heck. He was snappy at all of us including the dog so finally went to his room so I took care of the household as usual. This time I readjusted our routine. I started dinner at 5 instead of 430.

I made tacos for dinner and for dessert we had ice cream sandwiches. Yummy! Also while cooking I used my crutches. *high five* We took our time eating and then I got them in a bubble bath at 630. I let them play for 20 mins and got them out. It was almost 7 which is bed time during the school week. But instead I let Lillian watch some of her cartoon for a little bit while Emma played in the room. When it was time for bed it took Emma 30 mins to fall asleep unlike Lillian was out in 10.

Here is the good part! Instead of wheeling myself out of the room I stood up and used the wheelchair as a walker and hobled out of the room and to the sofa! Yayaya Go me! I then grabbed my crutches and tried to see how much more weight I could put on my leg. I am excited that I can get out of my wheelchair for small tasks!

Well that is or was my day. Now I am laying on the sofa relaxing. Let see how long this silence will last but I have my hopes up. Good night guys! Tomorrow is Friday. :D

There so cute at bed time :D After bath time depending on the time they will play in the play room for a little bit and then we will read a story. I wont just read I would either have Lillian "read" the story to us and we are trying to get Emma to do the same lol. They can be a handful at times but everyone has their moments. I can not wait to get out of this wheelchair so I can take them to the park, take lillian to her bus stop and have fun. I feel like such a bad mommy that I can not do all these things with them. I do plan on making it up to them. If and when I win my court case we are all going to sea world or somewhere where they can just run around and play. :D I love you my little ladies.

Sisters forever!


Lillian in the traditional "peace" pose. :D


Awww she reading her book...and Lillian not fast enough to get in the picture. lol


I cant believe how big she is getting and she will be two in November. Crazy!




Lillian loves taking pictures.


Emma over here yelling "CHEESE!" LOL


Here is Emma and Lillian cheezing away.


Also I want to do a honorable mention. A great friend of mine from Cutoutandkeep
made me this fantastic collection of logos for my upcoming online store. Michelle G. is the person to go if you want some logos designed for your amazements. Thanks again Michelle!


With that said Its time for a bit of shut eye. See ya all tommorow.

Okay..its been along time since I been blogging. Well the last entry you saw I was working really hard on my cosplay for the anime expo. Bad news. I was not able to go since July 13 I fell down and broke my leg and ankle...which resulted in surgery and me in a wheelchair. I go in for my final surgery on Oct. 14. of this year. So I hope to get out of this thing soon and get walking.

I am bringing my blog back up since I been overwhelmed with alot of unfinished projects. So this should relieve some of the stress and anxiety that is taking over my life at the moment.

I went to see my doctor for a follow up and she decided to test me for a few things. Blood work was under way and my poor arm..Ow..I should be use to being poked with needles by now lol.

But anyway the doc says I have depression and anxiety probs. So they got me on zolof and something to help me sleep at night. I am also suppose to write out lists and concentrate on just a few things on the list so its not overwhelming me.

So we will give this a try and I hope to get support from my family and friends.

Sugar Coated Chaos is back up and running.